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    December 01

    In Honor Of "Grandpa" Pete Lustig

     

    Well, I said I'd be back to say more about Pete, and here I am.  Quite frankly, I'm still dealing with the loss.  Even though we never met face-to-face, he was truly a wonder to me--somewhat of a "guardian angel", if you will.

    Picture this--you're a 40 year old female, single, and you've been independent since you were 18.  You've got your own business,  your own home, a relationship that you think is forever, a pretty nice car, and you feel you're on the right path. And for a while, all is going well--the American Dream, and all that.  Suddenly, an illness comes out of nowhere.  Hey, it happens.  You lose almost everything--the business, the relationship, material possessions, your pride, your confidence, and your health.  You're very sick, you can't work, and your friends don't know how to deal with your illness--slowly, they become distant, because they simply don't know what to do. Luckily, your family is close, so you do have some support, but they can only do so much.  You become so lonely and depressed that your computer is your new best friend.  And so, in an attempt to remain connected to the world, you try this blogging thing on a lark.

    Miraculously, you meet someone in your computer wanderings that doesn't want anything more than to be your friend, to support you, and to help you.  As most of you know, at least those of you who have been around the block at least once, this kind of thing just does not happen.  Not without some kind of strings attached. 

    But Pete Lustig was that person.  Along with his wonderful and amazing partner, Penny, he was a constant source of support and advice, and he believed in me when I did not believe in myself anymore.  He encouraged me at every turn, told me that I could make it--I would just have a different life now, because I would be on a different path.  And I could talk to Pete about anything--ideas, fears, relationships, you name it.  He listened without judging, which is a rare quality in a person. Penny and Pete were always there, ready to lend an ear, a hand, and sometimes, a shoulder to cry on.

    You see, I had always had a dream of becoming some sort of writer, but I always felt that I didn't have the education or the talent to actually do it. My family and friends always encouraged me to try, but I didn't know where to start. Well, Pete gave me my dream on a silver platter.  He introduced me to Marcos Menendez (another fine person, I might add), whom he worked with at an online marketing company called Loop Consulting.  They produce online newsletters, and other online marketing materials.  Pete got me a job working with them, and now I'm doing more and more projects.  So not only am I a freelance writer now, I'm referred to as Loop Consulting Group's Chief Editor.  Not bad for someone with no college education and no confidence in herself.  And it never would have happened without Pete.  My family is thankful and proud, and they will be eternally grateful to Pete for helping me to find my way.  How do you thank someone for completely changing your life?

    And I was always amazed at his boundless energy and creativity.  In my opinion, Pete was truly a genius in many ways.  It was very easy to forget that Pete was 85. His mind was always turning out new ideas, and he was brilliant.  I only wish I could have met him sooner so that I could have learned more about his amazing life, and learned more from him as well.  He was a person of quality, with a heart that offered love freely.  As I stated before, Pete was rare.  I've never met anyone like him, and I likely never will again.

    I still miss him everyday, as I'm sure his family, friends, and everyone he touched does.  People like Prescott T. "Pete" Lustig come along once in a lifetime, and it makes me sad that our time together as friends was so brief.  But I'm thankful to have even known him at all.  When I asked him once how I could ever thank him, he simply told me to keep doing what I'm doing--that was what would make him happiest.  So everyday, I keep at it, and I hope that he's looking down on me, and that I'm making him proud.

    So, if you take nothing else from this, take with you the idea of being a better person.  As friends and mentors go, Pete was the example that all others should follow.  He actually did things for people with no other motive than to help.  His generous spirit will live on in all the people he touched, including myself. 

    Farewell, my dear friend.  I miss you.

    August 24

    Prescott T. "Pete" Lustig, Feb. 2-1922--Aug. 21, 2007

    As some of you may know, our dear friend Pete from Late Life Crisis passed away on Tuesday, August 21, 2007.  I will post something more personal at a later date.  In the meantime, what follows is his obituary:

    Source:

    http://www.pantagraph.com/articles/2007/08/23/obits/127433.txt

    Prescott Thorne Lustig

    BLOOMINGTON - Prescott Thorne "Pete" Lustig passed away quietly on Tuesday (Aug. 21, 2007) with his loving and devoted companion, Penny Houser Hall, at his bedside.

    Cremation rites have been accorded by Beck Memorial Home, Bloomington. In lieu of flowers, gifts can be made in Pete's memory to the Mennonite Church of Normal, 805 S. Cottage Ave., Normal, IL 61761.

    Pete, as he was known to all, was born Feb. 2, 1922, in Janesville, Wis., the oldest son of Joseph and Lois Thorne Lustig.

    After graduation from the University of Wisconsin, Pete enlisted in the U.S. Navy in 1942 as an ensign and took his naval training at Great Lakes Naval Air station in Glenview. Pete served with distinction during World War II, participating in the invasion of Normandy on D-Day, June 6, 1944. He attained the rank of Lt. j.g. and was honorably discharged in 1946.

    Following his military service, Pete carved out a career for himself in the advertising business with McCann Erickson in Portland, Ore., eventually becoming vice president. Although Pete retired from McCann Erickson, he never really retired. He went on to establish his own business as a consultant to technical advertising firms specializing in Internet creativity and e-newsletters.

    Pete was 85 years "young" when he created his blog site, "The Late Life Crisis." He noted on his site: "All this furor about mid-life crisis leaves me unmoved. If you want the drama of lifestyle Crisis, wait until you get to late life. That's when things really change, adapting becomes a challenge." The site was an immediate success and once received the Blog of the Week Award with over 175,000 hits. The Bloomington newspaper, The Pantagraph, did a story about Pete and how well many "late lifers" are adapting to the Internet. He was extremely proud of "The Late Life Crisis" and of the many friends he made through the site.

    He is survived by Penny Houser Hall, his devoted companion of many years. Also, surviving are two stepchildren, James Roberts, Aventura, Fla., and Laura Roberts Dick, her children and grandchildren, all of Bloomington.

    His parents; one brother, Joseph Lustig; and his wife, Maudene Roberts Lustig, preceded him in death.

    A memorial service is planned for 6 p.m. Sept. 4, 2007, at the Mennonite Church of Normal.

     

    Farewell, dear friend....

    August 09

    Windows Vista--Feedback, Please

    Okay, I need to know what you all think of Microsoft's latest ploy to get us poor computer users to fork out more cash.  I haven't upgraded to Windows Vista yet--my machine is older, and I figured if I upgrade, it would need to be to a new system altogether.  My work now depends on the machine.

    But all the new machines are going to come with Windows Vista pre-installed.  So what's the skinny on this newest version of Windows?  Personally, I've always loved XP; but, alas, time and technology both march on.  And Bill probably needs another few hundred million by now, so we must stay current.  (Don't even get me started on the iPhone...but that's not Bill's doing.....bet he wishes it was!)  I've read all the articles--and I usually come away more confused than ever--so I'd like to hear from some actual users.

    So, any comments and opinions will be greatly appreciated.  I'm not quite ready to buy a new system yet, but I'm trying to find out all the good and the bad stuff before I do fork out the dough for a new computer.  While it's true that I love new toys, I don't like toys that I'm not smart enough to play with.

    Feedback, anyone? 

    Thanks!

    K

    New toys!

    Hello, all.  I just downloaded something called "Windows Live Writer", and now I feel obligated to play with it.  Ah, I do so love new toys. 

    I guess it's a bit much to expect it to post for me....but with a title like "Live Writer", I was half expecting it to write this thing for me.  I have been really slacking off here for quite some time.  Since I do some writing for actual money now, I've been lax about posting my trivial little observations and whiny complaints. 

    I do have news, thoughts, and observations to share, though.  Let me think....okay, so maybe I'll get back to you on that one.  I have some venting to do regarding ex-boyfriends, so that should be fun.

    Me & my Live Writer will be back shortly!

    January 10

    Just a wee bit behind, eh?

    Wow!  Where in the hell did last year go?  Of course, they always seem to fly nowadays...as a child, I used to listen to my grandmother talk about how fast time went by, and I thought she was nuts.  It was an eternity until school would be out for glorious summer, ages until Christmas, eons until birthdays!
     
    Now I know just exactly what she meant.  (Although, she still may have been a little nuts in other ways...)
     
    It has come to my attention that I've seriously neglected my blog in the last year.  Let's just say I was a bit distracted.  To recap the last year, it's been a mixture of blessings and setbacks.  For example:
     
    Blessing: I started seeing a new man, a very good man.
    Setback: Recently, I've come to realize he might not be so good after all.  That coin is still in the air, spinning. 
     
    Blessing: I was approved for Social Security disability, which was huge, since I can't work a regular job anymore.
    Setback: The IRS came in almost immediately and garnished part of it for back taxes owed on that white elephant of a business I had.  At least they're getting paid something, though. And, the disability still doesn't provide me with medical coverage.  But at least it's something.
     
    Biggest blessing of all:  Someone you all know and love from his blog, which is probably how you found mine, has provided unfailing support for me since I've known him.  For those of you who don't know, this would be Pete from the blog "Late Life Crisis".  He has even gotten me involoved with Loop Consulting, which provides me with much-needed work and a bit of extra income.  I honestly do not know what I would do or where I would be without him and his wonderful wife Penny to keep me going.  And I mean that.  He's my friend, my mentor, my surrogate Grandpa, and quite an inspiration.
    Setback:  ABSOLUTELY NONE!!
     
    And now I'm going to digress a little;  it seems that my most current setback--haven't seen the blessing in this one yet--is a kidney problem.  (Hey, my chronic disease just LOVES kidneys.)  I go to see a doctor that I can't afford tomorrow to get the low-down on all this.  In the meantime, all good thoughts and prayers will be appreciated.
     
    So, even though I don't make New Year's resolutions, I do hope to get back to my blog entries.  Pete, along with a few others, keeps telling me that I'm a writer.  So I'm going to try to do what writers do....which is write.  Even if I'm the only one who sees it, I'm getting the feeling I have some stories to tell.  Perhaps I can learn something as well.
     
    Bye for now--
    Kat
     
     
    October 10

    Nothing to fear except fear itself.....

     
    Ah yes, the famous quote from FDR...."We have nothing to fear except fear itself".  Rationally, yes, that's true.  But what does one do when fear is, in fact, the problem?  You see, fear and I are closely aquainted.  I also know fear's cousin, insecurity, really well.  Let me elaborate;  as some of you know, I've had some really big curveballs thrown at me during my lifetime (who hasn't?);  so far, I seem to have swung and missed, and a lot of the time, I struck out altogether. Oh, every now and then, I might not hit one out of the park, but I'd maybe at least get a ground ball.  But after a while, I started to notice a change in myself. I got afraid of the ball, afraid to even go to the plate and take a swing.  The fear of making another mistake.....the fear of yet another failure, or yet another obstacle.....well, it kind of becomes overwhelming sometimes.  I've learned that fear can actually paralyze you.  It can eat at you constantly.  It can also make you sabotage yourself.  I think sometimes if you're afraid all the time, always expecting the worst, always waiting for the other shoe to drop.....well, it just might.
     
    In other words, if you're always terrified that something bad is going to happen, you can actually manifest the things you fear the most.  I don't feel like I'm dropping any pearls of wisdom here that you all don't already know;  all of this stuff is pretty common knowledge.  I'd just be interested to know how other people handle fear and insecurity.  I guess a lot of that will depend on how your situation in life is, and some of it will depend on your personality in general.  I've read all the popular books on positive thinking, and how to become more confident, build your self-esteem, etc.  And again, I have to say, rationally, I know that I really don't have to be so afraid all the time;  I'm safe, I'm clothed, I'm fed;  I have people who love and care about me.  I live in a wonderful place where you don't have to be afraid of the horrors of crime every minute (although, you do have to pay attention...that's just common sense).  But the fear and the worry still persist.  They seem to be constants in my life that I'm having trouble coping with.  And if I don't get a grip on it soon,  it just might try and beat me.
     
    So, I'd like to hear how some of you handle your fears.  You see, I'm getting ready to start batting practice again, and I think I could use some help with my swing.  Any good batting coaches out there?
    September 17

    I must give thanks to a special person

     
    Now, this post is long, long overdue.  You see, I've been gone for a while as far as posting goes.  I guess I just had so much going on at once (still do), that I let my posting and writing fall by the wayside for a while.  I got wrapped up in other things, or maybe other things wrapped me up, I'm not sure yet.  Anyway, it's time to thank someone very special to me.
     
    This person has supported me, cheered me on, cheered me up, offered invaluable advice, acted as a mentor and even as a surrogate Grandpa. I'm sure you all know him.....it's our good friend Pete.  I'm telling you folks, I really don't know what I would have done sometimes without Pete to help and guide me.  But we all know how wonderful he is.  I just thought I'd put it into words.  And I'm not forgetting about Penny, either.  She's also been a great source of comfort, strength, and inspiration.  They have both spent a great deal of time reminding me not to give up on myself.  And having people who believe in you, especially when you doubt yourself, is worth more than gold.
     
    For those of you not familiar with Pete and Penny, his link is on the page;  his space is called "The Late Life Crisis", and his posts are amazing.  If you haven't checked it out yet, do so immediately.  You won't be disappointed.  His outlook on life, his wit, and most especially his wisdom will become addictive, I warn you. 
     
    So Grandpa Pete, this one's for you.  It isn't nearly as much as you deserve.
     
    Love,
    Kat

    Rats, Now I gotta learn all this over again!

     
    Well, shoot.  Just about the time I had this space thing about mastered, naturally they go and change it on me.  I don't know yet if I like it or not.  It seems so WIIIIIIDE.  And I put a more recent photo up, but for some reason it's all grainy-looking.  Oh well, you guys will just have to squint, because I'm tired of fooling with it for now!
     
    K
     
     
    September 16

    All over the place these days....

    9/16/2006 10:17 PM

    A rather erratic posting… 

    ON THE EVILS OF SMOKING: 

    I will admit it.  I’m addicted to cigarettes.  As far as I’m concerned, I might as well be addicted to heroin.  For the last four days, I’ve been so sick with bronchitis I could hardly breathe, so I thought that this would be the perfect time to quit.  My family, my friends and my boyfriend have all been begging me for so long to try.  So I got the little prescription inhalers, and I did okay until tonight.  And then for some reason, I broke. 

     I’m not going to make excuses; an addiction is an addiction, and the only reason I can’t beat this one is because I’m weak.  My mind wants me to stop; I know what it’s doing to me, especially considering the lupus and all the other health problems I have.  But my body will not seem to let me.  I will confess, the nights get long; the boyfriend is off on a trip to Alaska until the end of the month, and we aren’t getting along that great right now anyway.  So I guess I’m kind of lonely and my smokes have always kept me company.  No pets anymore, remember?   (Yeah, yeah, poor me).  I tried my best to find constructive things to do today, so that I would be exhausted and maybe not think about it.  It didn’t work.  I lasted four days, FOUR DAYS, and then gave in. It seems as if perhaps I might not have picked the best time to take this on either; my life has been a bit of a train wreck of late.  But I always thought, hey, there’s no time like the present.   If not now, when?

     I have beaten stronger, harder things than this, believe me.  I have stared things in the face that would make most people cut and run, and I beat them.  But I cannot seem to conquer this, and quite frankly, it infuriates me.  I suppose the only thing left to do is take one day at a time (what a cliché) and try again tomorrow.   

    I do not want to be a junkie for the rest of my life.  Because that is how I see myself, nothing more than a common street junkie.  (And believe me, I do have some compassion for addicts; I always think, “There but for the grace of God, goes I….”)

     Well, at least I put it out there.  I admitted I’m weak, and that I have a problem.  I’m not sure what that means, but I hope it means something.

    Maybe my next post will be more cheerful.  God, I hope so.  I’ll talk about all the good things that have happened since I’ve been gone.  I’m just struggling right now.  Thanks for listening.

     

    Kat

    June 13

    Crawlin' outta my hole for a minute...

    HI EVERYBODY!
     
    Wow, it's been a while since I've been here! Thanks so much to those of you who have continued to check in with me.  It does make such a difference.  My health hasn't been exactly peachy the last little while, so I've been a bit lazy about posting.  But, alas, I do come bearing good tidings......
     
    My disablity claim has been APPROVED.
     
     I cannot state strongly enough what a relief, and of course, a tremendous blessing this is.  As I said in a note to my dear friends Pete and Penny, I think I've been a little stunned for the last couple of weeks.  I realize just exactly how lucky I am to have this disability approved.  Although my benefits won't start for a little while, at least now I don't have to worry every minute of every day that I could lose my home.  And I'll have some access to medical care.
     
    And I firmly believe that this blessing comes from all the wonderful thoughts and prayers that friends such as yourselves sent me.  I feel that some of you have been with me all the way, and that is the reason I am so blessed.  Thank you all so very, very much.
     
    Well, I have to go for now, but I hope I'll be posting regularly again soon.  Take care and blessings to you all!
     
    Kat
     
    March 17

    Well, for cryin' out loud...

    First of all, Happy St. Patrick's Day to you all!!  If you aren't fortunate enough to be Irish, today is the day when we will adopt you, and you may be Irish for the day!
     
    Now, in other strange news...I'm still not over losing my precious Bailey dog.  So I was down to one pet, my little white kitty, Jack Frost.  Well, of all things, he had a stroke this past Sunday and I had to have him put to sleep Monday morning.  I was told that congenital heart defects are actually quite common in cats, although I've never had a cat that had heart problems.  Sadly, there's no way of knowing when these heart problems will affect them until they have a stroke.  There was a small possibility that he could have lived a short while on medication, but I have a friend who is a vet and she told me that he may last days or even a few months, but that he would be in pain the whole time.  I couldn't bear the thought of that, so I had him put to sleep.  We buried him next to Bailey.
     
    So, for the first time in many, many years, I am petless.  I'm sure I will eventually get another pet of some kind, but I'm going to wait a while.  I'm not over the loss of these two yet, and I want my finances to be a little more steady so that I can truly take care of a pet properly.  Or, as has happened many times before, a stray will appear and adopt me.  Ah, yes, I'm a sucker for a sad little face....!
     
    Okay, next time I post I promise it won't be anything but good news.  But thank you all for your kindness and sweet comments.  They really do help!
     
    Happy St. Pat's Day to you all!
     
    Kat
    March 05

    I stand corrected....

    Hello all,
    Well, there's nothing like a public apology to make one feel like a total ass.....just kidding.  Seriously, I want to thank Dietrich for his concern and for his apology.  I truly had no idea that my absence would worry so many, and I should have been a little less hard on him as well.  My comments to him following his criticism of me were indeed scathing and sarcastic; it's a defense mechanism of mine, and sometimes I might be just a bit quick on the trigger with it.  So Dietrich, thank you for your apology.  I accept, and I hope you will accept mine.
     
    In other news.....I lost my beloved Bailey dog this week.  It appears that either accidentally or intentionally (I do, in fact, have neighbors capable of such an act) poisoned.  POISONED.  I am trying to make myself believe that it was accidental.  I do not want to think about the fact that I may live in the same neighborhood with someone who would commit such an act of cruelty.
     
    Needless to say, I am heartbroken and somewhat inconsolable at the moment.  I have had other pets, but this one, this sweet, loving little dog.....well, he was different.  He was a mutt, and he had been kicked around a bit, just like me. All he wanted was to be loved, and once I gained his trust, he offered me unconditional love.  It was like a drug, and I was hooked from the moment he looked at me for the first time. We had a very special connection.  I'm still having a hard time believing that he is gone, and I am grieving more than I've ever grieved over losing a pet.  I miss his happy face greeting me, and I miss the sight of his tail wagging and his face lighting up at the sight of me. 
     
    My "Very Good Man" buried him for me in my backyard, and is doing his very best to comfort me.  He understands my feelings of grief and loss, because I think he had gotten quite attached to him as well.  I plan to mark Bailey's grave as soon as I can, so that I can remember all that he gave me.  I know that there are religions that state that animals do not go to Heaven, or whatever afterlife there may be.  I don't believe that.  If there is any kind of reward after this life, then I know my Bailey is there, because he was a creature of pure goodness.
     
    Thank you all for allowing me to vent my grief.  It is more helpful than you know, and you are all appreciated.
    February 20

    Chicken shit!

    Well, as expected, Dietrich deleted my reply to his comment on my space.  (See previous post)  I'm not surprised at all.  Folks like him love to dish it out, but they can never take it. 
     
    While I can't remember the chapters, I do remember some verses that always seem to be forgotten by some so-called "Christians".......
     
    "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone."
     
    And, one that I try to remember the most:
     
    "Judge not, lest ye be judged."
     
    See, I'm not a totally uneducated heathen. 
     
    ;)
     
    K
     
     

    'Tis myself...

    Hello all,
         Well, I guess Dietrich really told me, huh?  I posted a comment to his site, which will immediately be deleted because I basically called it as I saw it, with scathing sarcasm attached.  He's a young, self-righteous little prick.  And I had no problem whatsoever deleting his link from my space, as I do not wish to be associated with people like him.  So there.  But I'm leaving his comment up.  Hey, good, bad, or ugly, comments on the site are part of the deal.  It also shows the difference between real people and those who only claim to be.  So, Dietrich, should you read this, please forgive me for not paying enough attention to you.  Attention does seem to be what you crave the most, and your claims of being a good Christian are made only to further that goal.  Nice try, though.  You almost had some of us fooled.
     
        Now, moving along to the real people (and you know who you are)......for those of you who are truly sincere in your concern for me, I want to thank you so much.  I missed you all terribly while I didn't have a way to post.  A lot has happened since Thanksgiving, and my head is still spinning.  My health?  Eh.  About the same.  Some improvement in some areas, though, so that's good news.  As for the man that has come into my life, well, I'm not going to post much about him because he's an extremely private person and I know he wouldn't like it.  So I want to respect that.  I will say this much though-I completely adore him.  (Sorry, sweetie...that's what ya get when you get involved with someone like me! HA!) 
     
    Okay, that's all I have time for at the moment.  I wish I had some fabulous insight on life to share today, but my brain just isn't clicking that way.  Ah, well...perhaps next time.....;)
     
    Bless you all (especially you, Dietrich...you need it the most)!
     
    K
    November 25

    Happy (late) Thanksgiving!

    Hello all!
     
    Happy Thanksgiving to you all!  I spent the evening at my parents' house with my family.  It was a lovely evening, and I enjoyed it immensely.  I hope all of you had a wonderful Thanksgiving Day as well.
     
    I haven't posted much this week because it's been kind of busy around here.  I've been working at the shop, so when I come home, I'm dead-dog tired.  BUT....I did get the answer to one of the questions I posed in my Nov. 10 piece called "Regain Your Sense of Wonder". ...
     
    Ford Credit waits precisely 62 days before they come and repossess your car.  Yes, folks, I now have a new life experience to add to my collection.  I have met the Repo Man.  He was actually quite nice.  He showed up VERY early on Wednesday (11/22) and I was naturally not awake enough to think clearly.  Had I been, I would have remembered to get my tag off the car!  I'll get it back eventually, though.  Technically I have ten days to resolve this situation;  I had to call Ford Credit and fill out something called a "Redemption Application".  I could not help but laugh, and tell the woman that I am way past redeeming.  Although they are supposed to call me on Monday to inform me of my options, it appears that my options are, A: Pay the car off in full, or, B: Pay the car off in full.  I did inform her that if I were able to pay it off in full, it would not be gettting repossossed, now would it?  Needless to say, she was unfazed and did not seem to appreciate the humor I saw in the situation.  There is an old saying that states, "If you love something, set it free..", so I have made the decision to set my Explorer free.  Ford Credit can keep it with my blessing.  Of course, this means I'll be driving whatever I can beg and borrow for a while...but I'm not worried.
     
    So, two things:
     
    This Thanksgiving, I was thankful that I have a friend who loaned me a car;
     
    And now I wonder the answer to that age-old question that has yet to be answered:
    How many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Roll Pop?
     
     
    November 20

    Tinkering with my space

    Happy Sunday, all....

    Well, it certainly looks like autumn here today.  It's gray, cold, and rainy.  Therefore, I'm inside, all comfy with my blankie and laptop.  I decided to tinker with my page a little, but naturally, it won't do what I want it to.  I added a spot for a "quote of the day", which was supposed to automatically send a daily quote, but it wouldn't work so I just posted the link to the whole site.  Probably better that way....what if they delivered a quote I hated? (laughing) 

     

    I also did a little editing on my favorite links list (Site-seeing).  It resorted the whole list.  So if you don't see your site in the same order, keep scrolling...it's there.  I can't believe MSN Spaces doesn't have a "sort" option for those lists.  Ah, well.  If I were smarter (or more motivated), I guess I could create a new page with whatever options I want;  but then I might miss all my buddies here!

     

    And I do miss you all.  I think I'm going to go visiting for a while.  If this old laptop will let me....it freezes up a lot.  I've asked Santa for a new "gee-whiz" laptop, but I don't expect to see it in my stocking.  But I can dream....

     

    Kat :)

     

    November 10

    Regain your sense of wonder...

    Now, let me start by saying that I don’t have anything against psychologists, psychiatrists, or the mental health profession in general. They serve a vital function in society, and they help millions. As a matter of fact, I’ve been thinking lately that I’m probably in need of their services.  I’ve had therapy myself, some many years ago.  But sometimes, I truly believe that you can have too much therapy.  I know people who depend on those therapy sessions like I depend on my cane some days.  But, if that’s what they need to cope, then so be it.  Whatever gets you by.

    Recently, I had an “armchair therapist” tell me that I need to “regain my sense of wonder”. 

    Regain my sense of wonder.

    Folks, all I can tell you is that my sense of wonder is alive, intact, and very active.  I wonder all the time.  I wonder if I’m going to be able to pay the light bill this month.  I wonder how much longer until I find a job I can make a living at with my health.  I wonder if my loved ones are safe today, and if they’ll stay safe for a long time.  I wonder why there are little children starving in the world. I wonder how long Ford Credit threatens you before they actually come and repossess your car.   I wonder why there is war, and why good young men and women are dying.  I wonder why four people in my little community have committed suicide in the last three months.  I wonder where I left that piece of paper I took notes on yesterday.  I wonder why my dog won’t do what I tell him.  I wonder if I’m going to get sicker, and if I do, if I’ll be able to get care. I wonder why little kids put things up their noses.  I wonder why men say they’ll call and then don’t.  I wonder if there is life on other planets.  I wonder if I’ll ever get to be one of the lucky ones and fall in love, and be loved in return.  I wonder if Lee Harvey Oswald was just a lone gunman.   I wonder if I need to be in therapy...

    So you see, I feel that my sense of wonder is just fine, thank you. And if that’s all that therapy is going to be, then I fear I won’t have the patience to undergo the process.  As a matter of fact, I’d rather eat dirt.

    I wonder how dirt tastes?..........

    November 07

    Use your English Lit degree here...

    Okay, all you English Literature majors, teachers, and otherwise erudite and educated people....I need your help.  I have a favorite poem, but I can't find the author.  It is as follows:
     
    "I slept and dreamed that life was beauty,
    I awoke and found that life was duty."
     
    This may not even be the whole poem, but this is the only line I've ever heard.  In an old movie, no less.  But I like it, and I don't know how to search for the author.  So, a bit of help if you please.  I just know at least one of you out there has a degree in Literature that they're dying to use...
     
    Thank you in advance, and I'll be back later.  I'm working on what Kathryn M. calls a "shitty rough draft" that I may post once I finish it....I  know you'll all be waiting with baited breath!  (laughing...)
     
    I'm trying to get around and visit everyone, but my desktop is still fried, so I'm still working on the laptop that was apparently built in someone's garage....it's really old, and it freezes up a lot.  But I miss you all!
     
    Have a lovely autumn day,
    Kat

    I love quotes...

     
    The secret of a good old age is simply an honorable pact with solitude.
     
    Gabriel García Márquez

     

     

    October 31

    BOO!

    HAPPY HALLOWEEN!